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You Can Do Anything!

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Time for some honesty – sometimes I psych myself out or try to convince myself out of things because accomplishing something seems so, oh I don’t know, accomplishing. Sounds messed up doesn’t it? Well, it is. It’s like being scared of succeeding. It’s not the fact that I don’t think I can do it, I know I can.

Well –  that theory has gone right out the window. See ya later!

I have a love for the outdoors. For mountains, bodies of water, sunlight, moonlight and fresh air. I have a vision of standing at the highest peaks with my arms stretched out as far as they can go and basking on the beauty of the Earth. There’s no greater view than on top of a mountain. I want to stand in the center of dirt roads in the middle of nowhere and be swallowed in the sound and pureness of my surroundings. I want to encourage others to live life outside, to put yourself out there, to experience everything that the world has to offer because something different will come everyday when you do. Most importantly, it doesn’t matter if you do it all with a friend or solo. Don’t miss out!

Would you rather be the one looking out the window watching people play or being the one out there playing?

All of those things are powerful and can change your life but you can’t change someone else’s life until you do all of those things yourself. My giant hump is getting out of my comfort zone. Knowing that I can do things on a solo trip, no matter how crazy it may seem, whether I have a friend by my side or if I’m doing it by myself.

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This past weekend, I participated in Fort Worth’s Oktoberfest activities, aka a 5k followed by a 15 mile bike ride with German beer as my prize. Go big or go home, right? Why I had the desire to do this, I have no idea. The love of the outdoors? My ambition for someday participating in a mini-triathlon? A challenge? Being around like-minded people? Who knows really but I signed up a day before the event.

Did I try to talk myself out of it? Sure did.
Did I succeed? Yes, I succeeded the 5k run and 15 mile ride!

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I asked a few friends (and tried to convince with beer) to partake with me. I didn’t have any takers. I did it anyway. I ran (let’s be honest, I didn’t run the entire thing) the 5k. I took a short break and then headed out on my 15 mile ride, in the blazing sun. It shouldn’t be this hot anywhere at the end of September. I met about eight hills to go up (I peddled every.single.one) and only went down about two (who designed this course?!). I encouraged myself. I envisioned myself completing the challenge and I wasn’t at all upset that I was doing it solo, because, for once, this was for me.

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It’s sometimes hard to get out of a zone. It’s sometimes hard to do things for yourself. Sure, it’s always more fun when there’s people doing things with you. I’m a huge advocate of the more the merrier! Doing this event myself was just a beginning. It was a push in the direction of what I want my life, both professionally and personally. A drive, a challenge, fresh air and well being.

If I can do this without training, imagine the possibilities if I pushed myself just a little bit more. Sometimes, the push we really need is within! Here’s to 30!

I’ve Created A List…

Today marks a month since I’ve turned 30. In the past, I’ve typically done lists of items to accomplish by my next birthday but the last couple years, I’ve focused primarily on me and becoming more of the person I want to be. Although that’s a challenge in and among itself, that doesn’t mean that I don’t love achieving other goals and that’s what this list is all about.

I have a few items that I want to challenge myself to. More or less shorter term goals that will be stepping stones into leading me to where I’m meant to go and letting go of fears. Being scared often times holds us back in life, things from the past where we can’t quite let go but why should we sometimes – they’ve got us to where we are today, right? It’s how to use them to our benefit and lead us to a better place, right?

I heard this quote the other day and it’s been on my mind ever since…

“The light can only shine thru broken vessels.”

  • Take a couple classes that are challenging to conquer a fear. I’m terrified of heights but love being outside. The more I looked into this, the more I thought I could do it and maybe actually enjoy it. – Rock climbing
  • Splurge a little. Buy something that I’ve wanted but isn’t necessarily a need but a want. Something that I will enjoy. Will it be a new pair of boots? A kayak? A puppy? Probably not a puppy considering I live in an apartment but maybe someday. I’ll work on this one.
  • Plan ahead and make homemade Christmas gifts.
  • Start that Etsy store.
  • Leave the bubble. I have this comfort bubble that I hate to leave. We’re going to pop it, at least for a little bit. Maybe an hour, maybe a day. Small steps.
  • Try to find my career. I want a job that is rewarding, challenging and where I would feel as if my contributions really matter.

What would you put on your list?

Happy Birthday – Here’s to 30! A Look at the Last 10 Years

Turning 30 never seemed to be a “bad” thing until my last day as a 29 year old. Something about that morning hit me good and hard. It was “Enjoy your last day in your 20’s.” I’ve never been good at good-byes. This felt like one. Everything that’s happened in the last ten years was coming to a close, a new chapter was starting and I wasn’t quite sure I was ready to have those memories, be memories.

Our 20’s is the first decade that we really control. It’s all up to us. Adventures, education, freedom. We learn, experience, grow so much. We even get better looking!

2004 – I was starting my Junior year at Champlain College in Burlington, Vermont. I cannot even begin to tell you how much I loved “Camp Champ”, the faculty, my friends, my education. I would go back in a heartbeat. It was a chance to make mistakes, make the right decisions and meet people that would forever change and be a part of my life.

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2005 – Brought adventure. I went on my first airplane trip, solo (to see Josh and Mere in D.C.). I even went to the Macy’s Day Parade and drove back to Northern Vermont with one my oldest friends.

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2006 – The last year before going out into the real world. College graduation was underway but first it was fun, fun and so many laughs sometimes we couldn’t move. It’s absolutely amazing how people connect and become close friends. Years later, we have so many different and life changing experiences yet we are still so connected with memories. 2006-04Then, it seems as quickly as it started, it’s complete. We reached our goal. We graduated. To the best four years that we could’ve spent together.

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2007 – I wasn’t yet ready to leave the great town of Burlington, Vermont (although it weighed on my mind). Take full advantage. Enjoy every view. Sit and watch the sunset with your best friends. When you live within walking distance to downtown, drink all night and carry your friends home (or have them carry you, it’s good to take turns). Laugh, laugh and laugh. 23 was one of the best years of my life.
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2008 – Wow. Did my life changed in 2008. It was time. Time to explore a new place. My original thoughts of moving to Colorado (primarily because I couldn’t leave my fresh runs snowboarding on Saturday mornings) quickly changed to Texas (where there’s not even any mountains in sight). I packed up my car and moved 2,000 miles without a job. Who does that?! Leaving behind my “Cheers”, Tuesday Bluegrass nights where a table was always saved for Becky and I and they knew exactly what I was ordering – chicken strip platter with sweet potato fries, honey mustard sauce and a Switchback. It was a sad day my last Tuesday.

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And my little brother graduated college! 2008-05

2009 – This was the beginning of the run of weddings. It’s pretty special to grow up with the same group of people. Get together’s feel more like family reunions where a beat hasn’t been skipped. These are the people you want in your life forever.

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2010 – I’ve never seen mountains so big or trees so large. The world is full of treasures. We shouldn’t just go read about them, we should see them, smell them, feel them. They’ve molded us just as much as we’ve molded them. 2010-012010-092011 – I got to stand by my little brother when he got married, plus I got a sister. 2011-092012 – I was granted the best gift, a niece. Followed up by being her God-Mother. This perfect little girl constantly makes me laugh and puts a smile on my face. Can it really get better than this? 2012-072013 – …then it did. Niece times two. Complete opposites but they’re the absolute best. I can’t remember what we all did before them. I’m fairly certain that my brother did this on purpose. I use to win at every game we played before they were born, now I’m distracted as soon as they come in the room and he wins. I get it and I’m perfectly fine with it. Just don’t tell him.

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2014 – Here we are at 30.

If you asked me at 18 where I’d be at now, I would’ve told you graduated from college, married, at least one baby with maybe another on the way. Even funnier, at 23 I would’ve  said I’d be married to my bluegrass playing husband, living in the mountains of Virginia expecting a total of four children all with crazy, uncommon names (this hasn’t changed, they’re still going to get crazy, uncommon names).

In reality, I’m turning 30. I’m single, living in Texas and still hoping that husband is still in my future with our oddly named children. I now know that it’s not meant to be rushed, it’ll happen when the time is right.

I’ve met countless people that have forever changed my life. I still have some of the same friends that I’ve had since I was five, college friends who are like family that live across the country and new friends that I couldn’t imagine living without. That one person could change your life forever – right Heather? I wouldn’t have the memories of the last six years if it wasn’t for you (or should I say your dad?). Who knew the first day of English class freshman year would have such a big impact.

Life is unpredictable. No matter how much you dream, plan and prepare, I’m not sure that it ever comes out just as one may think. It wouldn’t be so much fun if there wasn’t a curve along the way. If you hit a guardrail, it’s to make sure you’re paying attention. God has a plan all on his own. Sometimes, he even comes back full circle to make sure you see how we’re all connected.

So, here’s to 30. Here’s to the past ten years that’s helped to mold me into the woman that I am today. The people, the travels, the experiences and the memories. I came into my 20’s a college student with little knowledge about what the next ten would bring. I leave a stronger woman more prepared for the ride of what may come along the way. Although I’m a little sad to be leaving my 20’s, it’s because for the most part they were pretty wicked awesome. Here’s to new adventures, loves, friends, travel, memories and making the most of every moment of our lives. Here’s to making 30 look good.

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